I was sure.. For more than a year I didn't start doubting my career in service at all. Yea recently that kinda feeling is back again. I just can't seem to get past myself. I don't want to move out of my comfort zone. I don't need a new working environment. I just want to stay at the same place, same ship. Sigh. But apparently I think its almost confirm that I will not be staying.. I will miss them.. I will miss all the complaining and fun. I already made up my mind. And I will know if I am staying or not in this career.. when the month of June arrives.

Meanwhile all I can do is to try to spend more time with my fellow crews. It's just one more month away and I won't have much chances working with them, neither there will be party time. Although I still keep my fingers cross, I just wanna make full use of this one month.

So happy to arrive back on land in the afternoon, and not what I anticipated to be in the evening. Went home wash up and took a nap. End up being late meeting Pei Qi and her sis Angela. HAHA! We went to our ktv singing date booked since two weeks ago, at the Ten Dollar Family KTV in Chinatown. We had our fun and jokes really. Can laugh until cramp. :D


Since I was at Chinatown so I asked if Becca will be at Ebar. Its like only a 5 mins walk. And yes I have to wait for her. Cos she told me dunno what chilli sauce exploded on her and she needs to get home first, changed and wash the chilli sauce clothes lol. Okay so we had a jug of beer there, and she had her dosage of looking at her dearest bf Jovan. We sang our one and only song there and left for Raining Bar cos slut is waiting for me there! :)


When we reach there it was madness. We laugh and sing and talk loudly like nobody business. And Steven is working! OMG seriously I haven't seen him in months. He said he is too busy with work. Don't know true or not. Or just lazy wahahahaha! :x


Oh yes busy night I have to rush to three places within a night. Actually got more places but I think I will be safer to go home by then its already 4am lol. I love companies. I love them much. ((:

Random and weird combination of people having fun yesterday, but seriously it was all THAT fun. Never play until so crazy for a long time already and only my fellow ship crews can do that. :D Wasn't really planning to drink initially. But well I went down because most of my ship crews are present there, so must go there see see look look drink drink, since they invited me down hahahahaha! Oh yes it's really been long since the last time I ate at McDonalds in weeeee hours like 4am wtf.

It's always important, to constantly remember who we are, our real identity, our real character, our real self. We often lose control of ourselves when we try too hard to be somebody we aren't born to be. Just be yourself. And you will be great. ((:

We've been through all kinds of shit and hard times together. We see each other naked before lol! We see each other at our lowest before. We see each others' desperate faces before. OMG seriously. Two years or so had passed just like that. HAHA! BK, Quan Hao, Alex and me went for a mini Cougar coy's gathering at Timbre (Old school). Had pizzas, cos we tried to order platters and stuffs but the waiter there told us they run out of chickens and seafood?!!! WTF right. LOL. We had our non stop walk and talk down the memory lane of our tekong times, as well as how well we are doing at the current time now. There's just so much to share. And we promised a clubbing session like really soon! :D