First time I was not home.. First time I never cut the cake.. First time I never wore nice clothes.. First time I didn't celebrate.. MY BIRTHDAY. Nevertheless I made it through. Though my big day was in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by canopy I hated the most lol. Was happy for myself I endured through the SIT test. Though the second day I sort of screw it up, which means my chance of becoming officer is like damn low now. HEH it's over dude I cannot do anything to it anymore.

Really happy dear friends and buddies still remember my big day. Switch on my phone when I arrived in camp, shocked to see 20 messages received, at the same time touched and grateful. Grateful for having such caring friends. Touched that some of them still remember my birthday, bother to wish me Happy Birthday though I haven't meet them in ages. THANKS!

They are:
01. Geraldine
02. Edward
03. Jasmin
04. Hasyimah
05. Boon Kin
06. Joanna
07. Janee
08. Denise
09. Peiqi
10. Michelle
11. Felicia
12. Angeline
13. Carney
14. Trixie
15. Samuel
16. C.Y
17. Nisha
18. Li Jun
19. Maggie
20. MUM!

Really love them. Cutted cake for my belated bday yesterday. Managed to snap a few photos with my family. ((:




/POP in one week. I cannot wait./

At first I was super depressed. Cos I knew I was down in luck the moment I step into Tekong. Always injuring my knee, sick and etc. Wonder what's next. And then the answer came. I HAVE TO FUCKING STAY IN ON MY BIRTHDAY CAN! It was a long story. The bottomline is I have to stay in Tekong, worst scenario is that I'm not staying in camp, I'm going to stay in the jungle ON MY BIRTHDAY! That night I couldn't sleep. Keep having nightmares about sergeants and officers spot checking & stuff. Probably I gave myself too much stress yeah?! And I haven't make up my mind on the sign on for Navy thing. I seriously need to decide soon cos deadline is like next monday?

Anyway not to worry, I've get over the birthday thing, staying over in the jungle and stuff. Mum's words really soften and cool me down hard. Now I'm able to think of the bigger picture. I will not whine anymore cos POP is right thereeeeeeeee!! One more full week of torturing days in Tekong and I'll say BYE to them FOREVER! ROARS! Anyway haven't post much peektures recently, obviously cos I'm in camp DUH! Took some random ones. YAY.


Ohhh yesss wondering why I'm online, at home, not in camp hor? Because this Thurs, Fri and Sat I'll be going for a test IN THE JUNGLE, half of my saturday is burnt, and today is the day to compensate us.. ermm they say it's their so call compensate lol.
BYE!

/I gain another KILO! :D /

First time getting send home. Had fever yesterday, 38.3 degrees. Today morning temperature shoot up to as high as 39.4 degrees. Had a shock when I saw the temperature on the thermometer lol. Was suppose to book out today afternoon, but because of my super high fever I was send home by the medical officer yesterday afternoon. Still feeling weak though. Next week's my BIG day & seriously I hope to recover soon. ROARS. Anyway my buddy was having high fever too.. he was sent home too. HAHA. I think he spread the flu virus to me. Heh!

It's raining heavily now. I've to book in later. I cannot stop thinking about it. My knee is still hurting like hell.. &its making me feel even more down. I want to cry seriously. I want to let it all out. I'm so stress up.





/on a sidenote, meet up Jasmin for lunch. She came over then to help me do facial. After all the misunderstandings and angry times. Eventually we are still friends. This won't change.. For Sure. Thanks for being there too. /

Seriously I dont think I suit the camps, digging of holes, living in the jungle kind of army life. So probably this may add up to one of the small reasons for me to sign on for navy = no more jungle = no more combat ration = no more camouflaging = no more sufferings. I'm really struggling to hold on. I keep telling myself that I can do it. Sometimes I just feel like crying it out, which I think I did in one of the days during outfield. I couldn't control my emotions. Yea you can say I'm mentally weak but I just cannot accept it. I have another few more weeks to surge through, I'm so afraid. very afraid...

I fell yesterday before I book out. Had 4 serious deep cuts on my right knee, so serious I cannot bend my right knee = cannot walk properly. I have to bite my teeth to tolerate the pain when I'm bathing, or I should say even when I'm moving about. I wonder how I am going to book in back to camp tomorrow. I don't wanna miss monday cos I've got Navy officer interview that day. Too many important activities not to be absent for. I'm effing stress. I'm feeling feverish. I'm in pain. I'm clueless wad to do next.. .. ..

Army seriously test your own endurance. 4 weeks have passed. Another 4 weeks more to the end of Tekong. I know I am shagged out already. But I also know this is the only time I can build up my fundamentals and train hard. I'm still deciding about to sign on or not. Cos I miss studying too lol. Don't laugh but this is true. Probably after what I went through these 4 weeks. Tomorrow is field camp. I booked out yesterday. Later 7pm I have to book in again. One day of rest is insufficient but still I'll treasure it and make full use of it. I dare not think about the field camp. Cos I know it's sure to be super super tired and difficult. &something that makes me happy: I gained 3kg YAY!





/I just need a simple hug. &I'll surge through it all./

Yesterday was suppose to meet KarMun but something cropped up. Luckily I have my best companion, always there for me! YY! We went over to town. Watched movie. Ate ALOT of things. Walked around. Chatted ALOT too. Ohhh yes the movie we watched was 'Max Payne'. I thought it was not baddd. Especially the visual and fighting effects were AWESOME. Just some killing scenes a little too cruel lol. We played the 'Pick a chance' Machine at Marina Square. The one you put $1 then have a chance to grab soft toys using the hook or something. Hard to describe but you know I know can already lah hor. LOL. We spent around $20 and grabbed 3 soft toys lol. I took the smaller chicken, let's see!


Later booking in already. Seriously how I wish I can have more time outside here. I'm really sick and tired of army life. Probably Armed Forces life, but I still interested in Navy. Cos the trainings and stuffs we learn are totally two different things. I'm very tired. HELP!! Next week is field camp already. So people probably I will not be booking out. But if I am, I'll let you all know. Cos I haven't meet up some friends for like 987654321 years already heh!
BYE!