haven make up my mind yet...
but then...
i think i will go for Aviva Open...
because i wanted to...
it's my first time experience watching live badminton tournament...
where top 10 players are there...
excited...
furthermore she say i should go for this one...
hahaha...
i shall take this suggestion...
cos can see her...
and see badminton matches too...
YEAH!!!!
hope GOD will understand me...
he will...
'cos no one understands me more than he does...
he will give me full support to my choice...
i love GOD!!!
^_^...^_^

today school reopens from june holiday
but everyone seems so sleepy
the atmosphere is very down...
i feel like sleeping now...
having computing module now
dun really like it...
because it consists a lot of mathematics
hope today i can get a "A" grade...

today is my first time having outing with RP cell...
was so excited yesterday...
and it was real fun todayyy...
we had picnic first...
then we play UNO card game... -_-"
everyone was so good at it that we played one game for 45 mins...
hahaha... cannot believe it too... and i lost it...
have to do forfeit... [i kissed the tree]... lol...
then we cleared up everything...
and went cycling... christine and james did roller blading...
everything went smoothly for 2 hrs...
after that we sat down again... watching the sun set tgt...
so heart warming... just like a FAMILY...
i really hope that RP cell can continue to be like this...
so much unity... so much fun...
everyone feel so belong to each other...
btw, tml school reopens!!!
i so happy... at last i can go back school...
and check out my classmates...
and not rot at home... ... ... ...
i have so much to tell her...
so many things to talk to her about...
but i just feel something is wrong...
something i have miss out...
something i am not told of...
i feel like crying...
so deep my feelings were for ___...

-i was outta bed at 11.35am-
-look at my phone and saw someone sms me-
-so happy when i know my friend ask me out-
-yeah! finally no nid stay home rot- -_-"
-went to play pool at cineleisure-
-then walk walk a while-
-took photo stickers-and it turn out nice-
-the guy[me] handsome =p-
-the girl pretty =D-
-had so much fun-
-but dinner abit... er...-
-not nice-cos food expensive then not tasty somemore-
-then went coffee bean for coffee and chat-
-walk her to bus stop-
-then went home-
-smiling now!! =D-

i cannot accept it...
why?
everytime i was the one who must let go...
i truly loves you...
I AM!!!!
now all i can do is to stay by your side secretly...
protecting you...
missing you...
but you will drift further away...
i will be sad and disappointed...
but i just want you to be happy...
can you feel it? can you hear me?

woke up quite early today compare to other days...
was called up by my brother...
'cos he bought breakfast for me!!!
how sweet man?
he seldom do that...
but i fully appreciated it...
at least today not so bad...
morning there's bro accompany me at home...
but in the end i was alone at home again...
nothing i can do...
no friends sia... SAD!!!!
no where to go ALONE... -_-"
so far today... only ate breakfast leh...
not feel like fainting...
no lunch and dinner...
i can survive...
'cos i ate air and dust at home... -_-"
tmr have training...
looking forward to it...
YEAH!!!
finally can get outta house for some fresh air...

it's always the same...
me...
alone...
had enough...
where's everyone?...
the road in front of me seems so rocky and hard to move on...
anytime i feel i will collapse...
i am tired...
i don wish to associate with the word " alone " & " lonely "...
for they stick to me since this year...
i want my past... those wonderful memories...

went to cut my hair just now in the afternoon...
aiyOoOoooo...
die liao...
now my hair so thin and short...
abit ugly lah hor...
hais... no choice...
face ugly hair ugly oso lor =(...
then after that went to find bro and mum for lunch in town...
ate some food from Ajisen...
and damn it... like... damn salty lor...
the sauce is like pure soya sauce...
wonder if i have kidney problem now... -_-"
after eating went to coffee bean for a drink...
then talk talk... then it's time to go...
as i still have to make my way back to hougang...
to meet nicole for church...
i reached on time lor...
then nicole as usual everytime late...
no choice...
i already use to it... hahaha...
then we took 165 to church...
but however we will be making our way to Adam Road Food Centre for dinner with our cell first...
but when we reached there there's not even one who had reach...
then we called Ser Ling and found out then everyone forgets all 'bout it liao...
what is this?
never mind...
me and nicole had a great meal...
sambal kangkong and stingray... yummy!
so when time reached 7...
we head to church for the zone gathering...
today's topic for the sermon was "Unity"...
and it was pastor Gary was preached...
and it's was fun and i understand alot of things...
after all that it's already 10... i was so sleepy...
SLEPPY!!! so i walk fast and tokk a bus home...
and...
and...
here i am blogging now...
really hope that i will not waste the holidays i am having now...
i had waste the top half of the holidays and i want to finish it fulfilling...
like today's zone gathering...

today had badminton with my brother...
from morning 10- 11...
then right after that i had to rush to Delta Sports Complex for my school badminton training... wat the...
so tiring...
but i dun mind actually...
because badminton is my LIFE... lol...
wonderful day...
play and play non stop for 3 hours...
then went home...
went to meet edward and angela of "the seven crows"...
they wanna study... but i had nothing to study...
so i brought my laptop and when they are studying i was using my laptop...
happily surfing the internet and talking online...
this is the only day i was not lonely at all...
hope that similar days will come by more often...
i really am lonely...
and i want my friends' company...
best hope for that...

argh...
as usual...
lonely whole day...
actually today may not be the same...
'coz meeting her to go out...
but something cropped up...
and it was cancelled...
if i say i am feeling okayyy...
i am telling a lie...
because i am not...
i was shattered all over...
juz hope that that next chance will arrive soon..........

woke up almost everyday no seeing one soul the house...
wonder what kind of life i am living...
so boring and lonely i am...
every single day i will wake up and sit on the sofa stunned...
mind completely blank...
no one to go out with...
no one to talk to...
how i wish there's this someone who will always be there for me...
one...
i just need that special one...
i hate lonliness... n
ever will i want to live with it...

- you are there-
-but i can't see you-
-i can't feel you-
-i've fallen deep-
-too deep to do anything-
-i need you-

She’s really a wonderful gal…
everyday I wake up I will think of whether I get to see her soon or not…
the moment I open my eyes………….
I simply dun understand…
I feel the comfort in her presence…
I feel the peace and everything…
She makes me smile…
Today I went for badminton training…
so tiring… n
vr had so tough a training since the first one…
whew!!!!
At least I complete the training session…
and I continous played for 4 hours…
I nearly faint there…
but overall I had my day passed happily and fruitful…
so nice!!!!