seeing couples on streets.
watching people being loved.
i've thought it over.
im such a letdown.
i shall nvr let anything bother me anymore.
i want to be love!
haha. more friends please.
it doesnt have to be girlfriend.
though i don mind.
sorry guys for my impulsive attitude.
sometimes just get too emo.
but i shall nvr do that again.
because it seems so stupid to me.
i wanna be free.
i wanna be secure.
i wanna be loved too.
and now i think i shld concentrate on my job.
earn more money to buy wad i want to buy.
then will have the ability and time to find my someone hor.
hmmmm.

11.02.2007

everything seems so hopeless to me
it's so damn meaningless
fuck the work
fuck the trifles
fuck the job politics
fuck VALENTINES
i just simply losing control of myself
bad mood
bad temper
suck it!!!

JB! yeap. had a really fun time on last saturday with serene, jasmin and serene's ah gu. went over to shop for CNY clothes but in the end only manage to buy a top and a bottom. booooooo! but it costs me RM$159.90 in total. then plus lunch at Kenny Rogers costs me RM$23. im left with $8 after going ktv in the afternoon. haha. made a new friend. Serene's ah gu(something like uncle). but then he's still like very young can. lol! he's damn funny and humorous. dinner was on him cos he knew i got no money. LOL! damn paiseh! zzz. but really laugh our way throughout the day. haha. at around 9pm plus went over to one very big prata shop to meet the ah gu's friends. haha. they also damn funny lah. i lose liao -_-

a whole new life I've got now. work work work and more work. not grumbling here. enjoyed my job. but somehow I feel as if I have been shifted into a whole new different galaxy. haha. that's when I will feel emo.. so long haven seen any of my friends. like my buddies serjig and jerome they all. abit guilty lah. and also other close friends like huilin and joyce. zzz! mind was thinking of earning extra income then like neglected my own friends. hais. sorry man! When my job is into a more steady stage I will try to make it up for you all. Haven receive mails from my angel for weeks man. it's kinda worrying but luckily i saw her online ytd. was happy to see her online. at least i know she's okay now. nowadays are emo days for me. cant stop it.

-tears is rolling-
-not sad but damn im so emo-
-don understand-
-the little boy is still waiting-

Wednesday 31.01.2007
went to extend my passport. Bernard acc me go. had lunch with him after that at beach road hawker centre. got work later but it was too early thus we went bugis walk walk lo. afterwhich at around 3pm I went off to meet up with mum at Hougang. Bernard needs to go his grandma house also. so we parted and it took me 1hr to reach Hougang from Bugis lah -_- mum acc me go Hougang mall walk walk to help me pass my time because my work is at 6pm and it's damn early. We then decided to have some ice-cream. so we settle down at Gelare Cafe for some waffle ice-cream! :) then mum went off to meet bro and his gf for movie. happening sia! and there i go again.. OFF TO WORK!

Thursday 01.02.2007
woke up at 12pm. was so so so tired can. working is so tiring though i enjoyed it. haha. ok im abit crazy. but got money earn plus thinking of getting money which i can spend to buy things i always wanted, gives me the energy. haha. working part-time so i don think i will earn much also. but at least there's an extra pocket money to spend. next month 28th February when my salary comes I will drag mum to M1 cos i want to chgn a new phone! haha. that's first in my wishlist. :) evening meetup Jasmin go shopping. I mean she shop and I tag along. no money to buy anything also. and as usual i spend most of my money eating -_- hard to control leh! had fun laughing and playing while shopping. she bought a top only. then we went home at around 10pm cos next day got school. acc her take 162 to YCK then i chgn bus home. home sweet home!