realli tired lor...
and i sick liao...
hais...
i think i eat too much heaty food liao...
sunday eat Swensens...
then monday eat Pariss...
then yesterday eat Pizza Hut...
DIE liao lah...
now my throat all phlgem...
hais...
think not going cell today liao... =(

love them!!!

sleeping soon liao lor...
cos very tired...
but i'm happy!!!!
this year de birthday i am contented liao...
juz now in school my class so nice...
gave me a surprise...
they bought a cake lor...
cheese cake somemore...
my fav. cake...
lol...
then like i was so shocked yet grateful...
*speechless*
i love them... =)

then after school went to meet my parents up...
for dinner mah...
they celebrating for me also...
then my bro and his gf turn up shortly...
i bought one new bermudas and casual shoe...
so nice...
my mom pay for me...
she says today special...
then i am so delighted and excited lah...
got so many new things on my birthday...
then like i can buy anything...
*Le'Cost shoe= $99
*Hob Nob bermudas= $39
happy...
tmr can wear to school liao... =p
then like feel so beonged in the family...
and also in the class too...
after the surprise my classmates gave me...

tmr going to celebrate with 5 dudes... -_-"
1. rene
2. jas
3. jack
4. nic
5. mike
happy lah...
going to eat...
rene, jas and jack treating me eat...
eating yuki yaki...
*yummy*!!!!!
graving for it for so long liao...
finally can eat...
hope don last min then cancel...
or last min chgn venue to eat..
i will sad till die de lor...
Wahahahahahaha... =x
half an hour more and my b'dae over...
how i wish this day nvr ends...
so xing fu lor...
no one bully me... =D
SLEEP!!!!
*chaoz*
*zZzZZZZzzz*

today my birthday...
actually i am happier than last year...
cos more people remembered my b'dae...
and i am contented enough...
not asking for presents...
juz get blessed i happy liao...

juz ate with rene...
told her she cannot bully me today...
Wahahahahahahaha...
yeah...
today i'm king...
no lah... =x
happy today lor...

later meeting mum!!!!
she celebrating with me...
dunno going where lor...
but then i noe one thing...
we are going to eat nice food!!!
*yummy*

tmr lehz...
will be celebrating my belated b'dae...
hahahahahahaha...
with my rp de friends...
badminton de...
nicole also coming along...
cos odd number mah...
then wanna ask her go too...
she's my best friend... =)
going to eat yuki yaki i think..
got ice cream steamboat!!!!
i very long no eat liao...
miss it!!!! =p

counting down to my 'first cry'...
finally it's here...
i'm happy so many friends actually remember my birthday...
and also decided to celebrate with me...
for the past few years everytime my friends will forget about it...
either no time or no money to go ut and celebrate with me...
finally i've waited and i can havw fun!!! =)
now going to church liao...
got to be dere by 5.30pm...
wonder wad's up lor...
cos like so early...
Wahahahahahahaha... =p
and hor...
i am so tired + disappointed...
be'coz juz now soccer kanna trash...
SIANZ... =(
7-1 lor...
i too long no play liao...
but also got save quite a few ball and clear it away mah....
hope my team understands why i cannot go training so often...
got cca also thus no time and energy also...
but then i promise them liao..
from next week onwards i will go down for training liao...
even if i am tired i will make the effort to go down lor...
cos i don wan to leave bad impression...

later after school need to rush home...
cos got badminton at 5pm... lol...
my friends book de...
den i go play play lor...
since tmr i not going for training...
too little courts...
waste time...
waste train fare...
no $$...

ytd quarrel...
hais...
don wanna tok about it liao...
it's over...

now alone in class...
so SianZ...
i think i come too early liao...
cos like no one in school...
i walked past all the classes no one came yet...
sad lah...
i forget to see the time when i go out of house...
cos i thought quite late liao...
how i noe i reached Dhoby Ghaut at 7.18am...
then like so early dunno do wad lah... -_-"
can sleep more de lor... =(

this saturday got concert...
Young Adult Service de Concert...
want to invite denise...
but then dunno she want not...
cos i scared she anti-christian also...
don dare to ask... =p

backview... =p

today i leading worship...
excited lor..
but then i think no more liao...
cos unless got a proper room...
or else there will be no worship in today cell...
den today john not coming...
so his office cannot use...
benjamin need to rush his project...
cannot attend also...
so his container also not available..
thus we will have to be in canteen again...
like last week...
lol...
actually i don mind lor...
fresh air...
then more spacious also...
juz a little loss of privacy lor...
nvr mind...
god is everywhere...
as long as we have him in our heart...
we can worship him anywhere anytime... =)

now lazing in the kitchen...
hahahahaha...
no la...
cos always cope in the room...
not sick also cope till sick liao...
very stuffy...
then very cramp mah...
kitchen open window more spacious...
then more open air...
Lol...
hais...
nothing to do...
will anyhow think de lor...
everytime also think till so far...
bout the past...
also about the future...
wad will happen...
i always imagine...
for the better...
be'coz i noe i am not so lucky... =(
actually today was a fulfilling day...
had a great time in school...
first time in this semester going out to conduct surveys and interview...
then like so funny...
my team was the more dramatic type...
then we plaed along the way when doing our work...
Wahahahahahahahaha...
the more i look into the pics my grp took...
the more i feel like laughing...
lol... =p
hope more of these days will arrive...
to heal the unhappiness that has haunt me for such long periods...
i want no more of that...
please...
get me outta this...
anyone...
just YOU...

culture module de grp...

had so much fun today...

i'm happy!!!... =)

i wanna get well lah...
so tmr can go training...
but then training like two courts all the way throughout lor...
so Sian... =(
still feeling tired and sick...
already time for presentation...
and soon can go home rest liao...
wahahahahahahaha... =p

still sick...
can feel sia...
then like eating...
cos hungry...
but then no appetite...
suffering sia... =(

still feeling sick...
although no more block nose..
no fever...
but then like whole body no strength...
dunno is it i play badminton too long liao...
but then i eat liao leh...
still SICK...
hope tmr by the time i wake up go school okay liao...
den i won't suffer in school mah... =(

oh dear...
i think i falling sick again...
i forever de lor...
now sore throat liao...
this week i eat VERY little...
cos like sore throat...
swallow saliva already very painful liao...
so this makes me lose all my appetite...
i scared i becomre more skinny by the time i recover...
hais...
i already left bone le...
slim down somemore realli skeleton liao...

ytd was a fun cell meeting...
had fun for games...
and had some useful insights gained by christine's class...
ytd i've learnt about how to be a servant first before i can become a true leader...
i prefer to be servant lor...
cos at least servant got things to do...
leader juz have to dedicate jobs then do nothing liao...
so not interesting leh...
Wahahahahahahaha...
and at the end of cell we had somemore fun...
we had a crossword puzzle by someone in church...
it's super lame lor... 0.0
i didn't noe there's people who are lamer than me...
can thought of those stupid things... =p
realli PRAISE GOD...
i feel i am beginning to get into the magical arms of god...
and he will protect me...
and i believe he will also protect me and help me recover form my illness...

today pon school...
abit rebellious lah...
but then don care...
cos computing...
then i don like...
and i think my grp members all nvr come...
Wahahahahaha...
later cos going play badminton at 4pm mah...
den at my house here...
if i go school sure cannot make it on time de...
and i realli wanna go play lor...
cos the people there like quite good...
but then i still BETTER... =x
oops...
hahahahahahahahaha...
den today de badminton training is PT lor...
don like running la...
although i noe attendance is important...
esp for the selection of IVP tournament...
however i still chose to stay home and rest...
and prepare for my game later.. =)

tired of all these waiting...
everything i also have to wait...
hais...
cell i also have to wait...
4.30pm finish school..
and cell starts at 7pm..
but then ends up always start at 7.45pm instead..
den end till so late...
i already so tired liao...
somemore about to get sick le...
still not enough rest lor...
lucky tmr i not going to school...
goanna pon...
computing...
hais...
please forgive me...
Wahahahahahaahaha...
realli don like lor...
got so many A maths things which i don even understand a bit...
now say going to chgn back to statistics liao...
i also don like...
i don like IT...
that's why i wanna chgn course...
i wan business course lah...
but then i think need to depend on my 'O' levels retake results liao...
lol...
i hope i will pass this time...
maybe can even get a good grade...
now in canteen...
about to rain...
and it's cold...
and I AM ALONE...
i wanna go home lor...
this type of weather should be at home...
on the bed...
in the blanket...
closing my eyes...
and.. SLEEP!!!!
now i am sitting here and there'e still like about one hr more time to go...
and now i nothing to do lor...
think i shall just watch my movies...
LoL...
actually wanna wait till tmr watch in the morning...
but then now realli bored till wanna bang my head on the wall liao...
blog later again...
if i can stay awake after reaching home lah... -_-"

now so cold lor...
cos juz now raining mah...
then forget to bring jacket...
come school on bus nearly freeze to death...
Wahahahaahahahaha...
realli cannot take it sia...
den cannot get to sleep on the bus...
cos too cold liao... -_-"
now in class also COLD lah!!!!
then now break so long...
nothing to do somemore...
actually ish i dunno how to do...
tt's why nothing to do...
LoL
25th November going for movie marathon...
still deciding who to go with...
Wahahahahahahaha...
so many people...
i ask sure all wanna go one...
cos my friends all cheapo one...
then free de of cos they will go... =p

chicken little !!!!! so CUTE !!!

i wonder why...
feeling lost nowadays...
qiqi got attached again...
i was shocked...
SPEECHLESS...
she bluff me again...
sha said she wanna concentrate in her studies...
den so fast again...
she herself noes that she will not last a relationship le...
why bother to try??...
i juz cannot figure out wad she is thinking...
i am quite pissed off at first...
but then...
there's nothing i can do...
as long as she is happy...
i have nothing to say...
just hope for the better for her and that guy bahz...

[loner]
that's a pretty suitable name for me...
i AM a loner...
this feeling is coming back...
i couldn't stop it...
it will only cause me to fall back...
fall back to my other side...
i have no place to hide... =(
i always feel so alone...
even though my friends are with me...
inside me i feel so insecure...
i feel so empty in me...
i always feel my friends aren't themselves in front of me...
WAD IS HAPPENING TO ME?...
i don wan lonliness...
all i ask is some secure care and concern...
some company...
some love...
*i was dreaming*
nvr will all this come...
i waited and waited...
when is God going to freed me from this agony...
WHEN?!!!!!

[my thoughts...]
爱要耐心等待...仔细寻找...感觉很重要...我相信这世界上...一定会遇到...对的人出现...

so irritated lor...
hate those people who likes to push blame ard...
nvr mind...
i shall not care anymore...
i had enough...

juz now went for maths paper one retake mah...
lucky it was easy...
i still worried for a few weeks liao...
dunno wad to do...
cos i scared i fail again mah...
but then this time is realli easy lor...
easier than last year de...
LOL...
hope history won't repeat itself...
and i noe it won't...
i won't...
GOD won't...
hahahahahahahahahahaha...
now at home...
abit sian...
cos nothing to do mah...
cannot play game...
cos muz wait till 4.30pm...
till the cs server open lor...
hahahahahahaha...
now i rotting away...
and keep taking pics... =X
wahahaha...


nice mah.? =p

actually monday going k-box de mah...
with my classmates...
but then i think cancel liao lor...
cos too many people not free mah...
hais...
a lot of them also not willing to skip school...
SIAN-Ness...
den i think maybe i shall go meet my mum...
ask her treat me eat nice food... =)
to distress mah... =X

juz now afternoon went for training...
woah! it was tought seh... -_-"
nearly had my life...
LOL...
did so many foot works till my leg dropping off liao...
cos IVP tournament coming le mah...
den i think coach wanna prepare...
at the same time see who is suitable to go for the competition lor...
hais...
i wonder if i have the chance sia...
cos i realli hope i can participate...
it's the most important tournament for badminton players lor...
den like represent school leh... =p
will be so proud of myself sia...
even if i don win...
at least i was given the chance to win something for the school...
but then school team like so many good players..
then somemore mostly is guys lor...
i don think i will stand a chance in playing singles...
doubles still got chance lah...
cos i think i've got a partner liao...
ish now all up to coach to choose liao....
wahahahahahahaha...

by the way juz reach home from some maths revision...
with rene and jas again...
so funny lor...
rene and jas english not strong mah...
den need to retake...
rene de problem = severe bad sentence structure and phrasing...
jas de problem = 'deadly' grammar and vocabulary...
Wahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!
they so funny seh...
make me laugh the whole night...
but then at least i tried to correct them lor...
and tell them the RIGHT way... =)
they also got help me lor...
cos i retaking maths...
then they pass their maths mah...
i got to ask them a lot of questions...
and asked them till i understand...
wahahahahahahaha...
tommorrow meeting qiqi in her house...
she going to help me do some last min revision...
actually i am already grateful to her liao...
she had already spent so many time on me lor...
teaching me and guilding me..
and also consoling cum motivate me...
GOOD!!!!!
i need that the most now...
cos i very stressed now...
having nightmares...
but i am not worried now...
cos i noe god will always be with me and protect me... =p
my cell and even my closest buddies like nic have prayed for me...
this makes me settle down a little bit...
at least can concentrate better lor...
ok lah...
go sleep liao...
*chaoz*

juz reach home...
juz now went to study with rene and jas mah...
hais...
rene buy new phone for mum lah...
den now she use first...
like tempt me lor... *saD*
cos i also like the phone mah...
wonder when i will have the $$ to buy...
hais...
took quite a lot of pics at mac...
den play play...
but then got study lah...
of course...!!!
so funny...
the evening was juz simply fun and wonderful lor...
hoping for more of that.. =p










one of the pic rene took of me... -_-"

juz ended school...
today like so little people lah...
13 onli...
Wahahahahahaha... =p
but then also good lah...
cos can end early mah...
den now i finish school liao...
but then need to wait for jasmin and rene...
den go meet rene's mum...
cos rene buying phone for mum's birthday mah...
so tired now...
monday got maths paper one...
so nervous sia...
3 more days onli leh...
cannot believe it seh...
so i not going school...
after that most prob i going k box with my classmates...
wahahahahahahahaha...
yeah!!!!!!!
help me distressed... =x

juz now meet piggy jasmin...
wahahahahahahaha...
so funny...
i asked her not to late...
in the end i late myself... =X
Den she nag and nag non-stop sia....
nvr mind...
we went to queensway shopping centre lor...
cos she said she wanna buy badminton shoes mah...
so i anything lah...
but then sian de thing is the shoes all don have her size lor...
den made a waste trip liao...
no choice also la...=p
den we went to town...
to have our dinner...
actually is my dinner also lor...
she lah...
eat so much in the afternoon then say still very full...
made me eat by myself...
it's okay actually...
cos we went to eat Fish & Co.
so nice lor...
people always say the fish very big cannot finish...
i ate liao think it's okayyy lor...
it;s onli when i finish my chocolate-shake then i full de lor...
den 'pig' go order the calamari rings...
in the end cannot finish...
muz stay there for so long to squeeze all down her throat...
wahahahahahahaha...
lol...
i first time eat Fish & Co. lor...
so paiseh...
wahahahaha...
grow up so long liao first time eat...
but nvr mind...
i still not so bad...
cos got 'pig' same as me...
she is nvr eat N.Y.D.C before... =D
we waited for seats for quite long leh...
started eating only at 8.15pm...
den went home after that lor...
reach home at about 10pm juz now...
tmr still got school...
go sleep liao... =)
*chaoz*

later going outta...
at 5.30pm ma...
so now i nothing to do lor...
sian sia...
nvr mind lah...
can play games and chat online...
hais...
wanna ask rene go de...
but then she got work at 3pm so cannot go...
sad lor...
nvr mind la...
tmr we going study tgt... =)
jas wanna buy badminton shoes...
and racket...
waahahahahahahaha...
so funny...
she dunno how to play wana buy racket for wad.?
nvr mind lah...
she rich then let her buy lor...
cos i thought now she got racket liao den no need waste money mah...
rene already lend her one...
hais...
maybe she juz want to have her won de lor...=p
she says go Holland Village eat dinner...
i dunno how to go lor...
hais...
i think she worst...
don even noe how to go town from bugis...
LOL...

so tired lor...
juz now i juz slept...
for 4 hrs...
cos ytd and the day before...
i sleep very little...
then feel very sick...
hais...
now feeling better liao...
Aloha so fun lor...
juz like a mini house...
and i had fun with my cell people also...
we played a lot...
LAUGH a lot too...
sadly we nvr took any pics la... =(
nvr mind lah...
at least we had a fruitful chalet...
now so hungry...
parents go out liao...
dunno wanna ask them to buy back for me...
or i should go eat with them...
but then i now very lazy lor...
i wanna sleep still...
but then i scared i sleep now again then at night cannot get to sleep le...
den i die...
Wahahahahahahahahahaha...
haven do maths today... =p
sOOoOOoOOoOoOOooo...
i think i will saty home and ask them buy food for me lor..
den i can use internet also... =X
no la...
main thing is to study maths...
hahahahahahahahaha...