I hereby announced I am a certified auntie killer. LOL. I don't know why I keep getting praises from a lot of aunties. C'mon.. some young ones can not. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Here's an example.
One old auntie who is staying in the same ward same room but different bed from my Mom, walked past my Mom's bed just now in the afternoon and asked..


Okay to translate that chinese sentence.. she meant..

Anyway Mom what's up with the "hope so... ..." ! Super no confidence in me lah can! LOL. By the way, this is just for you all to laugh lah hor. I am very humble one. Thanks bye. :D

I realised I changed. In the past I think all I will have most is grudges and hatreds. But now I am more forgiving and understanding lol. OKAY maybe due to my 'I don't really care anymore' I tend to forget and put things behind. HAHAHAHAHAHA! You! Stop laughing. Anyway it's the 4th day at hospital to look after Mum. Doctor says she is recovering well. She is still unable to move or get down the bed. So breakfast, lunch and dinner are all fed by yours truly, her son, me. It's kinda heartbreaking to see her like this.. sometimes feeling warm.. sometimes shivering in cold.. vomiting and giddiness due to the side effects of the 987654321 medications she has to take everyday. Just bear it all.. She will be well soon! ((:


Mom didn't want a lot of people to know (well I just blogged about it and she gonna kill me if she knows) but both my grandmas are like the HQ.. apparently each called up all my aunties and uncles.. most showed up today.. And mom got a shock lol. She now has 10 flower baskets, ard 6 months worth of chicken essences and numerous tonics lol. Maggie and I brought home some of the things already if not when she discharged from hospital I think we need a truck. I giggled to myself when I saw the trolley full of get-well-soon gifts because it makes her look like some big shot superstar LOL. Cute.

By the way thanks Nicole and Jasmin who came down to visit my Mom! Love you two lah!

& On the side note. My iPhone is dying. Time for new phone! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! :D

It's a family thing you know. Everything changes, mood changes.. when I am with my family. I love them like nothing else on earth. Because I have a super capable brother.. who got a 1st class honours in LAW at NUS and a Master degree in Public Policy from LKY School, we got a chance to take our family photo together! Never done it before.. we are going to have our family portrait framed up and placed at our living room soon! :D




People always ask, is it because I am not as capable as my brother thats why I sign on.. will I feel incompetent when compared to my brother.. is my parents more bias to my brother because he is better in his studies? Nope none of the above. We are good in different aspects and I am really very proud to have such competent and capable brother. We do different things, our ambition and aims in life differs too. So why compare everything? Anyway I think Mum is bias towards me instead hahahahaha cos he always complain otherwise. lol.


And many will ask if I am going to further my studies.. hmmm.. currently its a YES. After I serve my bonds with the navy you may just see me as a student again :D Or you may just see me as a boss in one of the shops HAHAHAHAHA cos I also have a plan B which is to do my own business. God will bless my family. They're wonderful people in my life. And nothing gonna change that. ((:

Okay today I am suppose to wake up at 11am. Instead.. I slept last night and I woke up every hour.. I meant at 1am, 2am, 3am, 4am, 5am, 6am, 7am, 8am and 9am.. I cannot stand it and woke up angrily. I know I have nightmares but I couldn't remember a thing. GREAT. I feel retarded. Especially when I see dark circles forming. CB.

Seriously September couldn't be any more sucky than this year's. And everything can just happen in a blink.. all together at one time, till I couldn't breathe. Lost everything, even my courage, confidence and focus. This sucks. All in all friends always tell me some things aren't up to me to decide. I totally agree. But it also makes me feel helpless and useless. What to do? I am clueless. I thought I have support. But apparently I found out I actually don't. I am on my own now. How.


Thursday is nearing and I am starting to have nightmares. Waking up every day at 3am. Finding myself all alone, in tears and with sweat. I prayed everyday. Maybe there's too many things to worry and cry for.. I couldn't cry anymore. Tears all gone. Only heart aches. We always tell ourselves to take chances. Seize opportunities. I do. How about you?

Things changes. Our fate changes. Life changes. People changes too. We evolve and grow through these changes. We should keep in mind that there are far more unfortunate people around us and we should be contented with what we are now. Not to consider those branded stuffs you get.. but those love and concern you get from your family and friends.

I want to live my life to the fullest. HAHA. I think everyone will say the same thing but how many actually really tried? We mourn about our so call "sad" life everyday. We complain every single thing to people around us. But we never learn. We never learn that these difficult obstacles in life will only make us stronger. It hurts but it will heal.