Long awaited meetup with my Bimbos. &this time its Nisha's birthday! She somehow managed to think of Botanical Gardens, to have picnic there. It was a little random (lol!) but we had fun. We always do. Especially when there are many digicams and one SLR around. LOL! :D

YES! The last sailing is over. As usual, insufficient sleep. Piles of stress. Missed home. Missed friends. Looking forward to the 29th. Sorry Im nagging always, cos I really need a long break from sailing. Its a new experience for me. Not to say that I hate sailing though, but I just need a short break to get myself back for more challenges. I'm in it! ((:

Okay firstly, randomly I came to know there are STALKERS viewing my blog. People I don't even know, probably never seen before. Maybe they're bored. Or maybe they're just some aunties or uncles forking out gossips or something. EHHH STRANGERS.. PLEASE GROW UP. Thanks bye.

Secondly. Mom told me she had a weird dream about me and erm... maybe if you ask me I will consider telling you LOL. But I promise its really big time gossips hohoho!! When I hear it from her, I nearly choked on my dinner =/

Thirdly, I'm going sailing again tomorrow. Makes me feel like dying. But I guess it's the last sailing before I head back to the 'school' on Monday 29th. PLEASE LET ME PULL THROUGH THIS CRUCIAL WEEK! &thanks friends for all the loves and trust. I will make you guys proud.

YAY! Finally, I mean really finally.. no more SCT.. 3SG lor!! I mean its weird to wear such a new and ermm (I should say..) unusual rank walking around.. taking public transport and all LOL. But nonetheless I manage to make it through and survive. Sailing had been madness. Sometimes I feel I can't seem to keep up with the flow outside camp. Like I'm so lost in the ship's world.. I can't find connection with the outside people =/


one more week and I can do it-

Back from my first ever official sailing. As I said, things are never easy. People think that we sailors are more slack than those who are in the army doing field camps and all. What I can debate about that is: Field camp = Physical stress & Sailing = Mentally Stress. There are just too many things to do and to complete. I doubt I did really rest. But at least I did learn something useful. These 3 days I miss my family like madness, especially dear Mom (sorry if I'm a mummy's boy =/). And of cos my friends too. Thanks Angieee and Syimah for sending me sms trying to reach me even though they know I might not have reception on the phone. But it's damnn awfully sweet.. I swear!! :D

So yesss Im like back on land, able to go back home for a night. Tomorrow I'll be sailing for 3 days again. Hopefully after the first time, I will slightly get used to it somehow or rather. Syimah was sweet. When she heard I'll be out for a night, she asked me out for dinner! :D I miss her badly too! I need that motivating hug!! Anyway we drove all the way to Changi Airport Terminal 2 for Swensens. Cos the atmoshere nicer mah.. then take photos also nicer. But in the end we ate, but couldn't find a place to camwhore. So we did manage to find alternative camwhoring destination. DONT TELL YOU ALL WHERE HOHOHO! x)

One week has passed. Should I say 'finally'?! It has been a tough week for me. Trying to adapt to ship's life and their culture. It's never easy. It's NOT. I kept giving myself any kind of motivation I can think of to keep myself going, and to prevent myself from breaking down. I don't consider myself as a pampered or mummy's boy, all I can say is that it is really difficult. We dont have beds to sleep on, don't have time to rest, apparently we're like maids. We do everything, anything anytime anywhere. Think of the impossible, I think I may have done it.

Next week is the sailing period for me. I'll be gone for almost the whole week till the 16th. But even after 16th last sailing I have to stay in. So practically it just sucks big time. I was really stress up and troubled. Friday night Syimah brought me out for dinner, even though she had to rush for some other stuffs after it. It was a short dinner, but at least we chatted. And I'm glad we did, cos it makes me feel better, letting me know there's people supporting me. My friends, especially my family, are my utmost important people; my motiviations ((:




I've to keep my morale high, not to think about the rest of the days I'll be staying on the ship. Just do my part, learn wad I can possibly learn in the shortest time. Eventually I have to accept the reality cos the rest of my career I think I'll be spending there. But at least I have that 3 months in between to go back to the navy school for some reflections and mental preparations. I need time. I feel so different, like I've lost touch with the outside world. Numb is the word I should say; I don't really feel much about things going on outside. Sometimes I feel like crying but I know I shouldn't, cos I need to be strong. I can't afford to let down people who are watching over me, who are putting their trust in me that I will succeed. &I know I will.

I wanna watch movies;


I need more time for my friends;



I don't know if this is wad I want;



I wanna strive and do my best;



Im trying seriously;



I need more sleep;



I need some love lol!



I need the strength;



It was hell today;
But Im ready to welcome the worst.
This is it. I will endure.

First day at Tuas. Things are good cos everything is normal. Except the weather is a killer!! Tomorrow is going to be on land too. Wednesday then will be going down my respective ship. Hope everything will be smooth too. ((:

Met syimah for dinner. Cos when she heard that I am booking out in my Number 3 uniform, she die die wanna see. LOL. Cos I have been wearing it so long, but she never see it once at all. That was ermmm.. really UNLUCKY I guess hahahahahaha. So she manage to make me pose and all. I'm not a poser okay. Just 'POSED' for her sake HEH okaythankyoubyebye. :D